The Reason to Go On!

Hello everyone- this is the first day of hopefully many more. An old friend just left my home after he raked me over the coals fairly well. My life has been to hell and back over the last year and its time I get up and "fight" again. He reminded me that life is more than a series of positive and negative events but its about a higher purpose. I know that but have not acted like it. Over the last two decades, I worked hard to help others and toward a higher purpose. But, life hit me in the face and my world crumbled down. This blog is not about the details of who was at fault but its about what I know to be right. My friend just gave me the nudge I needed to go ahead an fill this dream I have had for years.

I hope that in coming months, I can share some awesome information to help others and myself. By all rights, I should be dead right now. I admit there have been nights I considered suicide as most people would when then go through horribly traumatic events. I have made a choice to leave most of my past life and most of my friends for their benefit as well as my own. Though I know there are hundreds of people who still love me and want me around from my past life- this is the path my God has chosen for me.

The training I have received and given over the last twenty years is what has helped me survive. This training helped me manage my thoughts and focus on what's possible in this life. I know there are many more out there who need a voice for them. I know there are people who struggle to get up in the morning. I know there are people who are hurting  beyond reason and no one seems to care. I know there are those who are lost and can see no way to recover. I know there are people who look at "self help" books and websites hoping to find an answer. These answers are then neatly available with a purchase of $19.99 that can buy the answers to save their life and give them riches beyond measure.

I don't claim to know everything. I do claim to know that there are some skills and attitudes one can carry that will help them survive. I know that our problems don't get resolved over night. I know that sometimes we have to let go to get up. I know that it truly is the darkest right before the dawn. I know that I am thankful for all the torment I have been through in my life because it will make me stronger than any of those people whose life is easier. I know that no matter how bad it is, I can find hope.

I hope you will come with me over the coming months as I journal each day. I hope you will find some comfort in these words and even join in the discussion. I hope you will help me by providing responses and encouragement. Let us journey to a better life together as I share with you the skills to do so. I will rise not by my strength but by that of my Lord and also from your encouragement.